went attachment at liang court.

was so damn boring lor.

no sales.

unlike marina.

perhaps im used to high volume store le ba.

den work at low volume store.

i will go crazy lor.

haha.

i can say im lucky to have him.

if not im afraid i will make another mistake again.

no matter wat happen ard me.

no matter i do.

no matter wat it is.

dear i love you one and only.

i promise.

(:

the party night is over.

did not went clubbing.

instead we bought 2 chivas and drank it at the chalet.

there's me.

haffis.

dennis.

fiza.

and dila.

we all really drink till forget the world.

unique experience.

i like it.

(:

i was unable to slp for the whole night.

so the next morning was so damn tired.

i really not feel like doing the crew outing.

go home and slp.

but still.

i forced myself to do it.

conducted the games.

ok lah they seems enjoyed it.

but i think is not as good as the previous one.

watever it is.

its finally over le.

and once again.

i lose my voice.

the worst thing of all is.

i have to work aft the outing.

im alr tired aft one sleepless night.

alr no voice aft conducted the outing.

still have to work.

its like so f*** lor.

hais.

but wat to do.

i was so fraustrated tat aft the outing ppl just wana go home like tat.

without helping.

argh~!!

i just feel tat im left out behind.

=(

another thing tat made me really boil is..

faizal mc.

f*** off lah him.

i really feel its so damn unfair~!!!

ARGH~!!!

wat to do.

this is life...

hais..

my shift is just so unsuccessful.

n i felt so unwell just now.

my head is so heavy.

argh~

i hate tat kind of feeling.

=(

its just so unfair!!

sad and sorry to say..

i just feel so unsecure

its a brand new day~!!

putting on big smile and off to work.

=D

2more days to the party tat everyone is waiting for...

thank god.

i think im fortunate.

(:

god..

may i ask u wat have i done wrong?

just came back from shopping for crew outing gifts with haffis and fadz.

i had wrapped them too.

yup 1 more thing had done.

(:

my god~!!

gapbuster results out.

ytd dinner.

lucky 100%.

of not james sure blame me de.

although not my shift.

but he actually wanted me to stay till 8pm.

but i 6plus go off le.

he nv inform me to stay till 8pm before hand.

so i go off aft i finish my task lah.

den he called me at 1852 asking me i go off liao ar.

den i told him i go off liao lah.

he still can tell me he tot tat i'll stay till 8pm.

duh..

i oso dunno.

den gapbuster came at 1856.

thank god 100%.

thank faizal fiza and zainab done a good job.

if not for sure i get it from him de.

but he oso dunno i not feeling well.

i went off and see doctor.

hais.

wat to do.

nvm lah.

as long as gapbuster result 100% can le.

(:

my 3 off days gone liao.

coz eric have to go espresso class.

and im going to liang court for attachment.

haa.

early in the month i told james i wana go.

but he planned eric to go instead.

and now my wish granted.

im going!

lols.

i somehow likes to go attachment.

coz like fun like tat.

haha.

crazy lah me.

i had been to many stores.

plaza sing.

centre point.

north bridge road.

junction 8.

and now liang court.

hee.

=p

the feeling of not feeling well real sux lor.

feel so tired the whole day.

hais..

=(

shopping is really real fun and great.

thanks jie for acc me shopping.

=D

finally got my heels.

ya for the wedding dinner i suppose to attend.

and oso got myself 1 shorts and a top.

and 3more tops on the way!

hee.

havent been shopping like this for a long time liao.

(:

myself..

im not very fine.

my coughing these few days is driving me crazy.

hais..

next week crew outing and clubbing.

really looking forward for it.

im the one who organise it once again.

but james dont wana me organise it coz i organised the one in may.

haffis dont wana me to organise it coz its not fair for me.

but as time draw near to the outing date.

seems like no one is taking any action.

so i start the ball rolling by booking the chalet and the transport.

and again haffis asked me is it alright for me to do all these.

i told him i dont mind de lah.

if wait for them to do.

i dunno wat will the outing becomes.

den next the games.

planned to be fadz in charge.

ohh my..

i better take over tat big task before the whole outing crops up.

coz to me wat i think the crews expect the most from a outing is the fun and entertainment so of coz is the games.

so since im experience in organising games all sorts of these.

i think i better do it.

i really dont mind whether is it fair or not.

i dont mind whether i did it before or not.

as long as everyone enjoys it im happy le.

(:

but of coz there's a level of stress too.

afraid tat they dont enjoy the games i planned for them.

hopefully not!

=p

work has been smooth all these days.

but today.

i had a 'big fall'.

well is it bcoz wat i had done ytd?

crews recently are really getting out of hands.

im just doing my job.
wat i supposed to do.

gave them the right punishment.

den wat i got back today?

scolded by customers.

i really break down.

im lost.

i dunno wat to do.

thank god haffis is there.

thanks.

but sorry that u got scoldings too.

even got scoldings from james too.

felt bad.

hais.

i try my best to think it positively.

i treat that as a lesson for me to learn.

(:

i cant rmb when is the last time i cried coz of work.

but its the first time aft 14mths me at marina.

i dont want to get transferred out.

I DONT WANT~!!

so wat heeren is opening another one?

crew outing is on 24nov.

hope is another fun and successful one.

(:

and 23nov is our clubbing night again.

looking forward!!

=DD

life is really not easy.

family.

bf.

friends.

work.

EVERYTHING!!

sometimes i really tired of living... ...

life is not easy and not as smooth as expected.

i may look happy and smiling infront of all.

but who noes there's sadness and sorrows behind all my smiles.

work..

been thru another freaking busy period.

f1 for 3days 26sep to 28sep.

worked opening till closing.

-_-"

but AT LEAST i still got the chance to sneak out to watch.

its really fun and excited.

aft f1.

here comes hari raya on 1oct.

its really so busy.

and somemore not enough crews.

coz most of my crews are malays.

so i dont really blamed them on coming to work late lah.

tats the only exception on tat day only.

other days i dont allowed!

well we all already so tried.

already not enough crews.

freaking customers can order:

'1 chicken leg and 2 potato'

'i want to order mcdonalds'

'i want mccafe'

its like TOTALLY OHH MY GOD lor.

shit all those customers.

den i went to my class on 13oct to 17oct.

learnt quite alot.

get to noe other ppl's experience.

get to noe more friends.

hmm love going classes.

but dont ask me to study full time.

think i cant make it ba

haa.

den went patch outing on 20oct.

i enjoyed.

not enjoying the games.

i think the games i plan for my crews are much more fun lor.

but enjoyed all the cam whore-ing with haffis and fadzli ba.

really cant stop laughing when with them.

and oso enjoyed pool session with my team.

although i did throw face there.

coz i duno how to play!

but i learnt abit and pick up some skills.

haa.

well thanks haffis and fadzli for acc me go early in the morning.

the both of them did closing the day b4.

and i forced them to acc me go.

coz if i go alone without them.

not fun de lor.

hee thanks ehh freaks.

=p

but i oso feel sorry for haffis coz he still need to go back store do closing aft the outing.

he dont want coz he says he's tired.

i did help him talked to james.

but james still nv change his mind.

i told him i take over him but he refused.

hmm sorry =(

well anw!

i had FINALLY handover crew scheduling this difficult task to haffis liao!

haha.

n i took over inventory.

its totally stranger to me.

but i believe i can learn alot from it.

still in the process of learning.

well i always turn to haffis if i've got qns.

tat day ended up he bombed me with alot of qns and i cant ans all.

and ya thanks for all ur qns.

made me cant update my chart.

if james looked for me.

i will find haffis!

lols.

hmm well.

now i've a goal target wish and hope.

by the end of the year 2009...

(:

ohh!

had went to OBA dinner on 18oct.

saw so many teachers.

mr sng.

mr francis.

mr khng.

mr seah.

ms tay.

mrs chou.

mrs tan so wah.

mrs dolly ong.

and saw tat WU GUI oso.

argh!!

yup yup.

im happy tat i went.

satisfied!

(:

u've seen my pretty side.

and now u had saw my ugly side.

u're the one who im afraid to see when im troubled.

u're the only one who i burst into tears when i see u.

u're the only one who can dig out my heart and mind just to let me speak out.

thanks for your hugs.

thanks for your shoulder.

i love you.

(:

i dont bother those who have comments against my bf.

as long as im happy and he's happy.

im contented.

(:

i oso dont bother those who still having comments against my job.

yup.

as long as im working happily.

im satisfied.

(:

am i right?

if ever really there's a day tat im not happy le.

i think i noe wat i shld do.

no worries abt me.

(:

ytd i attached to nbr.

lucky louise is there.

the way she treat her mgr is exactly the same as how she treated me abt 3 to 4yrs ago.

i told glenn 'u're lucky to have her as ur mgr. without her, i wont be wat i am today.'

its true lah ehh.

during those days if she is not there to scold me whenever i made mistake.

i wont realise any until today.

if i nv realise i wont learn.

with her ard.

tats y i realise and i learn all the way until now.

(:

ytd kelvin ng asked me wana transfer to the new store at spring leaf or not.

i told him 'tolong ahh i dont want ahh..tat store is so damn big. got all the assets there -_-"'

den he told me 'good wat..u noe bdae parties, drive thru, mds, cafe, 24/7'

i replied him 'headache de leh handle such a big store. like marina square such a small store im contented le.. haa =D'

celebrated our 1st anni at hot pot culture.

have our own mini steamboat.

free flow of ala-carte dishes.

the most interesting is..

free flow of chocolate fondue.

hee delicious lor.

for the first time i ate buffet with him for two and a half hrs.

lols.

=D

aft dinner actually wanted to take sg flyers de.

but my camera with my bro.

and my bro is at taiwan!!

argh~

we dont wana waste the chance taking sg flyers but nv take any photos.

so ended up we nv take lor.

so shall i blame my bro borrowing my camera tat caused i missed the chance of taking sg flyers?

haa.

work is nv easy.

once u overcome 1 problem.

there will be another problem ahead waiting for u.

but im consider lucky tat ppl will help me when i need help.

im really lucky to have great colleagues ard me.

thanks for giving me advices and im learning them.

(:

well now i really noe tat guy's pride is really very high.

they really want their face so much.

ya.

i got 2 live example at my workplace.

11sep is not tat sway afterall.

i had passed my FTT.

1st attempt!

hooray~

hee.

will start my driving lesson on oct.

excited!!

=D

i've been waiting for the day to arrive.

i did not ask for more.

wat i wish is just to spend the day with him.

but ended up he cant.

i was imagining tat he will give me any surprise or wat.

but i noe actually all these imagines are trying to console me only.

i just wana make myself feel better.

he has been always angry with me.
this time round can i be angry with him?

i can be understanding towards him.

but y cant he be abit more understanding towards me?

i had been feeling so unfair.

i always dare not to say this to him.

coz i noe if i really do it.

there's a high chance of quarrel.

i dont want it to happen.

tats y i just keep to myself.

so call always 'listen' to him.

i try to understand y he want me to do this or do tat.

actually all he wants is tat i dont do anything tat he dont like or dont allow me to do.

well..

as long as its within my limits.

as long as he is not far too much.

for sure i will do it.

but from the bottom of my heart.

i can say tat he nv treat me far too much before.

hmm..

he's always angry with me coz i did not 'obey' him.

as in..

he dont like me to stay at work too long aft my working time.

but i stayed at work coz i always got endless work to do.

he always tell me to leave it and complete the next day.

but to me.

i will feel uneasy if i left my work undone.

and the worst thing is.

there's more job for me the next day.

how?

we always quarrel regarding my long working hours.

actually he dont like it its bcoz..

he dont want me to over-tired.

see..

actually wat he said its for my own good.

im just kind of stubborn not to 'obey' him.

well..

now wat i trying to do is to understand how he thinks.

(:

yeah~

thinking of going to watch F1 night race.

made me feel so excited.

im going to watch it with haffis and fadzli.

hee!

on 27sept aft midnight.

haffis says tat we can watch it by the roadside.

ok lor.

y not?

F1 leh.

its so rare lor.

=D

so so sorry to my wu jie shinyi.

although i changed my shift with my colleague.

but still i cant make it to ur bdae chalet.

sorry~!!

forgive me k?

im not perposely de..

but on tat night.

me and my colleagues went MOS.

almost full attendance lor.

except my boss, james not there.

see..

1st assistant - haffis

2nd assistant - suet

floor manager - fadzli

crew leader - pooja , afiza

crews - bobbie, manchot, hanafi

shift leader - dila

beanie - vera

really enjoyed myself man.

the most shocking thing is.

most of us already got drunk outside our store.

lols.

fun fun~

but tiring lah.

im old le ba.

wahaha~

=DD

on 25th nina and me went jb.

sway me.

did closing on 24th.

but forget to put back the shuttle keys.

i realised it was in my pockets when i reached my block.

so 25th 7morning 8morning need to go back store again to surrender the keys.

sians.

somemore faizal opening.

double sway double sians.

den~

met nina at bugis at 9am.

den we walked over to the bus station to meet shi an to bring us to jb.

ar bo we surely got lost de~!!

haa.

we had mac porridge for breakfast.

hmm.

not as nice as the 'singa-porridge' we used to have.

haha.

met 3 of nina's crews abt 1130.

yeap and foo meng joined us ard 1330.

total there's 10 of us.

big group ehh.

haa.

no car.

so we took cabs and travelled place by place.

they can really bargain the price lor.

power~

haa.

we went shopping for the whole day.

i used s$100 exchange RM235.

i bought myself 2 watches 1 bag 1 shoe.

i still got RM40 left.

felt so happy and satisfied.

hee.

=p

thanks nina for organising such a trip and thanks to her crews for bringing us ard for the whole day.

(:

my boy was so angry with me coz i couldnt managed to resevered place at kuishin bo.

for his dad's bdae celebration.

its a weekday so i TOT wont be tat much ppl.

so i called the day b4.

was fully booked liao.

kena scold frm my boy.

hais.

so ended up he and his bro prepared steamboat at home.

yup.

guilty miee~

sorry dear..

):

yeah yup went hiking with iris and xiu on 30th~!!

had our breakfast at yck.

den took bus to bukit timah.

den we found our way there.

starting is so tough lor.

SO steep.

omg~

we finished our hike in abt 1hr and 45mins

(:

so many many jokes happened frm beginning to ending.

i dont wish to eleborate coz i dont wana throw my own face.

for sure iris will throw my face de.

so for more detail abt our hiking.

refer to her blog ba~

lols..

aft hiking.

i went home had a bath.

den went to eunos to meet my 2 cousins.

den we went to the RSAF open house.

reached there.

raining cats and dogs.

sians~

so bo bian we take a look at the indoor galleria.

aft a while.

the rain stops liao.

den we watched all the planes and the air show.

nice.

(:

work is always so stress.

i really hate things are not done in my way.

im so afraid tat my bad temper is back again.

i dont want~!!

hais.

i really felt so bad i shouted at him.

i told haffis 'its really very true tat its not good to be too close to crews'

he agreed.

i rmb jun told me this.

coz she used to always quarrell with nina.

looks like the same case as mine now.

i told haffis tat i felt so sorry and guilty tat i shouted at him.

feel like gg to say 'sorry' to him.

but haffis stopped me.

he told me 'u must rmb u're a manager. if u go and say sorry to him, he will take advantage in the future. u just pretend nth happened.'

hmm ok lor.

perhaps he's right.

so tat night i went home without saying sorry and i went home with guilt.

im so excited~!!

6 more days to our 1st anni.

hee.

=p

*loves boy

phew~

national day had finally over.

although we are did not met our initial target.

but i believe tat my team had did their best.

and of coz i did my best too!

guess wat?

perhaps most of u all might think tat im crazy.

but all i can say is tat im just TOO OVER committed in my work.

8aug i worked 2pm to 11pm.

dennis changed shift with me coz its his bdae.

so he worked 730am to 430pm instead.

den 9aug(ITS THE DAY) i worked 7am to 1am.

18hrs leh~!!

my goodness!!

hmm its like so damn busy and i dont have the heart to leave.

so i stayed up aft 4pm to help out.

busy all the way working its like wont feel the tiredness.

the tiredness comes aft the busy-ness.

but at 750pm i went missing.

coz..

i went out to wait to watch fireworks!!

LOLs~!!

=DD

at first actually haffis told me tat at 8pm he will go out to watch fireworks with me.

but abt 8pm liao.

he's stucked at work.

but i managed to sneak out.

haa.

actually i supposed to go up foodcourt to meet renne and tirta de.

but by then the whole mall is already damn packed.

no chance for me to go up de.

so ended up i watched fireworks alone.
sad hor?
lols.

stress ah~

lotsa stuffs happened at work.

so shocking and unbelivable.

always i met problems.

haffis will tell me 'zo lang tuo si ah ni kuan'

and today problems found him.

so i told him 'zo lang tuo si ah ni kuan, this wat u always tell me'

ya i believe tat too.

most of the times we cant control wat is happening or wat had happened.

all we can do is accecpt the fact ba.

(:

if its not urs.

forever its not urs.

perhaps its time for me to hands off le ba.

and i can conclude tat our friendship is not tat strong as i expected.

its really sad to say this.

but wat else i can say?

now all i focus on is my work.

yup.

i believe tat there's future in there.

hope im not wrong lah.

(:

im going for another class on october.

i hope i can score well and be proud of my store.

but the swayEST thing is im going class with tat stupid idiot faizal~!!

-_-

now if ask me to go back school to study.

im like not interested liao.

yup.

i dunno how james can cope with work and at the same time studying part-time.

salute him.

haa.

hmm on 20th going for shin's.

tat's a long day for me lor.

work.

meeting.

chalet.

lucky the next day im off.

hee.

and on 30th going hiking with iris all.

yeah yeah.

yup yup promisd no back out this time round.

excited~

=DD

alright tat's all folks~

see ya jies on 20th.

(:

another day had past.

my boy took half day off as he need to go cgh for dental check up.

since im not working so i met him at cgh at 3pm.

aft his check up abt 430pm.

we went to marina to collect his mp3.

ya his mp3 was sent to repair within a mth.

aft repairing they claims tat no fault.

-_-

den was shopping ard.

we ended up decided dinner at yuki yaki.

hmm alright lah.

left yuki yaki abt 830pm.

did a little bit more shopping.

den left marina.

*iris.. actually when u called me i was at marina too.since u replied me so late so i did not called u back..=p

i still feel tat im a bad friend.

i felt guilty~

due to my work schedule not fixed.

weekends not necessary my off days.

even if i off on weekends.

i chose to go out with my boy.

coz he oso only free on weekends.

its my rare chance.

so mostly friends asked my out on weekends.

either im working or im out with my boy.

am i zhong se qing yong?

sounds like right?

hais.

boy had been asking me to change job recently.

he asked me whether im working this for life?

i told him if there's a chance for promotion i will stay.

den he told he will give me moral support.

i hope he meant wat he said.

(:

coz i love the job.

i love wat im doing although im stress at times.

i believe tat watever job out there.

for sure there's advantage and disadvantage.

for sure there's a level of stress-ness.

i believe tat there is NO job without stress de.

so i will stay with this job until... ...

arghhh~

boy noes wat im gonna buy for him next mth le.

no good de.

no more surprise liao.

sads.

):

25th gg jb with nina and kallang's gang~

kinda looking forward for this outing.

shld be fun ba.

=DD

28th is boy's dad's bdae.

boy says wana go kuishin bo for dinner.

hee.

yupp~

happy 11th.

*loves

(:

teresa came down on tues.

tot she will be doing ppa.

but ended up no.

she looked thru the national day schedule.

hmm feedback lot lot.

wat to do.

she's the boss.

national day is like 3more days nia.

excited but scared.

hope to achieve our 30k sales.

team lets work hard!!

=DD

as for national day preview sales.

21k vs last yr's 18k.

well done.

(:

suet~

dont think so much.

life still move on.

be happy k?

well im alright now.

perhaps still not perfectly alright ba.

i really would rather dont wana noe anything.

truth is really rather hurting.

y did you ask me?

if you did not ask me.

i dont know anything.

if i dont know anything.

i wont feel hurt.

now i noe the truth le.

i really feel so "bu gan yuan".

hais.

perhaps way boy says is right.

since they dont treat me as friend anymore.

its not worth it to be sad.

if one of them still treat me as friend.

the one will try their best to keep the friendship.

seems like no one is doing anything abt it.

which mean that i already meant NOTHING to them.

it sounds like they're still happily together without me.

i think its really time for me to let go le ba.

for the past 5mths how i hope things will get better.

but no.

am i suppose to hate the one who let me noe the truth?

or to be happy tat finally i noe the truth already?

i wonder...

boy.

im sorry tat im not a perfect girlfriend.

i noe i do take things for granted at times.

but... ...

im a useless friend

im a useless girlfriend

im the most useless human being in the earth

leave me alone.

dont ask me wat happened.

i just wana be alone

argh~

me and my team was like preparing for PPA like nobody's business.

chionging all the undone paper.

putting up communicating posters all over the crew room.

i had not enough slp for the past week.

my crews scrubed and cleaned up the restaurant.

bla bla bla...

in the end.

teresa MC.

-_-

and PPA had postphoned to 5aug

much thanks to haffis who volunteered to help me do pre ndp and ndp schedule.

i was like telling him 'hais actually im so worried abt the schedule..where and how to get 50over crews?how to run if we got not enough crews?'

haffis 'dont worry lahh..hana all for sure are doing sth abt it one lah'

me 'y always must bosses go ard sending email den they all will help ar?y dont they like automatic abit?'

haffis 'suet lin..the world is like tat one...'

i've got nth to say.

perhaps he's right ba.

i've to admit tat the world is indeed evil.

i learnt sth new frm james few days back.

u handle the situation, not the situation handle u

now i noe le boss.

(:

my store de dessert kiosk open le.

so happy~

finally i get to try flavour burst.

haa.

although i worked closing last night.

but still i went to support the opening of dessert kiosk at 12pm.

kinda successful.

must jia you ohh..

but pls dont beat my cafe sales.

if not james will come aft me.

lols.

=DD

hmm.

but my boy seems dont like me to be so committed in my work.

hais but tats me leh..

i just feel tat.

since this my job.

i wana do the best.

i believe tat my commitment is worth it de.

but boy seems like dont understand wat im thinking.

hmm all i can do is to prove and show him my results.

(:

just now haffis was saying if he would to be at marina for 2yrs.

no life~

for sure these 2yrs he got no friends.

coz work is endless.

have to go back to work even though is his off day.

well..

wat he said made me did some thinkings.

i wana do the best in my work.

but at the same time.

i dont wana lose my family.

i dont wana lose my friends.

i dont wana lose him.

i dont wana lose my life.

i dont wana lose myself.

how to balance everything?

i wana balance all.

suddenly i felt so bad.

im like putting my jies plane.

promised to go hiking.

but always i cant make it.

but seriously shit i dont expect i'll be doing another graveyard this week.

its like consecutive 2weeks graveyard.

did james overlooked?

or this is actually his plan?

hais.

sorry jies~

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